Afternoon thoughts

So much of my life is wrapped around food. I wake up thinking about it. I plan menus and fill out Peapod orders and watch cooking shows and list new recipes I want to try. I know that I eat not just because I am hungry, but also because I like food. And, I love to cook.

I need to find other things to do. I do have many interests, but I have been isolated lately. A big reason for the isolation is financial. After nearly 2 years of unemployment for my husband, there are many activities that have been eliminated. But, some of what is eliminated is by choice because of a depression. Much of the depression is caused by my weight. So, I figure if I force myself to do some of them, I will feel better. And, then of course as I lose weight, I will want to do more of them and hopefully it will become habit again.

One of the many things I like to do is read. I have started to read again. I can't decide though whether to read a few Danielle Steel books that have been hanging around here or a Sue Grafton book on my Kindle. Such tough decisions. When I used to read all the time I was up to date on each of them. I always read them in order. Now, I don't really consider myself to be a perfectionist or anal retentive, but for some reason I feel like I can't start a new one cause I don't remember where I left off.

Reading over that paragraph makes me sound really pathetic. I have to laugh at myself. I think the solution to the books is to read a totally different one so I don't have to figure out where to start again.

I also want to start playing the piano regularly again. Although I will probably be selling it shortly and part of me is afraid to get attached to it again. I will miss it.

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